“What are you going to paint?” my husband asked as he watched me grab my long-neglected travel set of Windsor and Newton watercolors.
“I don’t know yet” I answered absentmindedly.
He looked at me, not quite understanding how one can paint and not know what they’re painting.
“When you’re wracked with self-doubt and creatively constipated like me, sometimes you have to just paint and not worry about what you’re painting,” I clarified.
“Well, sometimes you just need to take a big creative shit” he concluded as he walked away to check on his masterpiece — a pork shoulder smoking on the grill.
I laughed, but also realized the wisdom in his observation.
Sometimes you do just need to take a big creative shit.
In my day job as a support engineer, I troubleshoot websites and plugins all day. And as much as I love technology, using the analytical side of my brain that much wears me out mentally and spiritually.
I’ve made it a practice to go straight to painting and drawing after work. And the rules for these sessions are that there are no rules.
It’s a judgement-free zone where I create for the sake of creating and don’t worry about making something pretty.
Sometimes I make something pretty, but most of the time I make something terrible. And that’s okay.
As a result, I’ve felt less stressed and I’ve been able to get good practice on a lot of different techniques — both digital and traditional.
It’s been an effective way for me to deal with the stress, feelings, and confusion that come with being a creative person with a technical job. And I encourage you to give “creative dumps” a try.
I’m a Tucson, Arizona-based writer and artist. My work combines nature, bright colors, and a hand-drawn feel. My inspiration comes from the Sonoran desert, my weird sense of humor, and my struggles as an artist with a technical day job.
My backyard is the wild west and I love driving my Jeep up mountains. I live in an RV with my husband, and when I’m not writing or creating, I enjoy photography, knitting, learning web development, and playing video games.